I can’t really recall being as busy as I am at the moment for quite some considerable while.
When I had my previous management-job-from-hell, I was so busy all the time that I used to start work very early, finish very late, and still wake up panicking in the middle of the night about the stuff still on my “to do” list.
Things aren’t, I’m glad to say, anywhere near that level. (But then I don’t have a bully for a boss and I don’t spend my breaks crying in the loo either, thankfully.)
But I have been working quite hard.
My partner works away quite a lot at the moment. Some weeks he is gone for several days and nights at a time.
He leaves home early and gets back late. And when he is home at weekends (which he hasn’t been for the past two weeks) he is tired.
So at the moment I am the homemaker. The one who cooks, cleans, organises lad and keeps family life together.
One massive difference between what I do now, and what I did when I had my management-job-from-hell, is that now, I have to be my own boss.
I have never felt that I am very good at being my own boss. Self-motivation, it’s fair to say, has sometimes been a problem.
I have procrastinated. I have shirked. I have skived.
I never did this when had that job I hated. Back then, I slaved and slaved until I nearly had a breakdown.
Which seems somewhat topsy-turvy to me.
But recently, I have found myself stepping up.
I have discovered my motivation, my mojo, my momentum.
I am rattling through tasks that previously I prevaricated over. Instead of dawdling, I am darting and dashing. Or at least doing.
I am still behind on my “to do” list. I still have little panics about things I haven’t got done yet. (Like keeping up with my blogging.)
But I feel that I am, at last, starting to achieve a level of self-discipline, and with it, some balance in life.
And I am liking it muchly. ♥
When your work is what you love, what engages your interest and makes you want to get up in the morning, the world really is a much happier place, isn’t it? I love the way that what seems an insuperable obstacle when I’m uninspired becomes child’s play when I’m on a roll. I hope your momentum and mojo keep up!
Absolutely Kate! I do feel that a lot of the time I should be working harder. After all, if I’m prepared to turn myself into a slave for someone I don’t like or respect, why can’t I be motivated to work just as hard for myself? But then I remember that part of the reason I hated that job so much was exactly because there was no let-up on the treadmill, and that I stopped doing it precisely because I didn’t want to live like that.
And that putting family first is actually a much better priority to have anyway.
So glad you’re enjoying your mojo, I’m often having little panics too.
When I’m having to be my own boss I never feel that I have done enough!
Perhaps that just goes with the territory! Love your stitching so xxxxx
I’m glad it’s not just me with the little panics! Not that I want to wish them on others, but its nice to know that others have that swan thing going on too (where they look calm on the surface but underneath are paddling like mad to keep going!)